How Do You know?

How do you know when it's right? When is it really the right time to just let go of every boundary you have set in place, forget about everyone else in your past and forget all the times you have been hurt. How do you know when it's okay to take a chance again? When will someone come along that will make you look past everyone else that you pass in the future? When will you know they are the person that will change everything?

You just know.
I hate this answer. I hated feeling like my turn was just taking the scenic route and got lost along the way. I hated feeling confused. "Is this it? Maybe it's not. What if it is and I mess it up." I hated feeling like I had to sacrifice my happiness in order to keep a relationship together. Blah blah blah. You know what.... You REALLY DO just know.

You have an "aha" moment, where everything makes perfect sense. Things you overlooked before are as clear as day.

Believe that when things don't work out, it's because God has something better waiting for you.
Believe that there is someone who will love you to the ends of the earth, for everything that you are!
Believe that the only way to be truly happy is to be happy with yourself first.
Believe that perfect exists!
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After Amelia, my ideals changed. Her needs were more important than mine and I wasn't sure how to find someone that would be everything we both wanted and deserved.
I think Im off to a pretty good start. Whether this is for a moment or a lifetime, I think it's perfect.

So how do I know?

He never makes me feel like I'm competing for his attention.
He never leaves me to wonder.
He makes me feel beautiful and smart and special.
He never makes promises he doesn't keep.
He brushes my hair out of my face.
He challenges me.
He tells me he misses me and means it.
He makes it impossible to be upset when he is around.
He teaches me things, without even knowing it.
He encourages me.
He has an incredible smile.
He looks at me when I'm not paying attention to him.
He laughs at all my jokes, funny or not.
He is educated.
He cares about the world around us.
He has a kind heart.
He loves to hear me laugh.
He opens my car door, even when he has his hands full.
He is gentle.
He wears sweaters :)
He isn't scared to talk about the future.
He appreciates me.
He understands that my daughter will always come first.
He respects me.
He has a deeper understanding of what it means to be a man than anyone I've ever met.
He only lies to me when he says he is done tickling me.
He has a personal relationship with God.
He loves the mother that I am.
He makes me smile.
He apologizes even when he isnt wrong.
He is so predictably unpredictable.
He loves his family.
He is the funniest person I've ever met.
He sings to us.
He knows I could listen to him all day.
He picks at me, but is never mean.
He is confident but not arrogant.
He always brings out the good in me.
He has a way of making all my worries disappear.
He makes every second complete bliss.
I can't imagine a more well rounded man.
He sends me a good morning message every morning.
He is a complete goof.
He is self sufficient.
He is a man of his word.
He is just as adventurous as me.
He drives safe with me in the car, and even safer with the baby.
He never pushes me or my thoughts aside.
He pretends to enjoy things, just to appease me.
He always cheers me up.
He is genuinely concerned with our well being.
He has opinions.
He puts God first.
He helps me through even the most difficult hands im dealt.
I never feel lonely, even when we aren't together.
He always tries to make me happy.
He isn't scared to be himself with me.
He respects and loves his mother.
He isn't scared to dream big.
He lets me cry on his shoulder.
He never makes me feel small.
He accepts my past, and never uses it against me.
He makes life easy for me.
He loves my daughter.
He is always late.
He makes me strive to be a better person.
He surprises me.
He listens when I talk.
When he looks at me, he is really looking at me.
He pulls me closer, even when we are close.
He positively impacts my life daily.
He protects me.
He knows the kind of man he wants to be to his children.
He treats me like a princess.
He works hard.
He kisses my forehead.
He thinks I drive great... For a woman.
He knows what he deserves.
He talks about A almost as much as I do.
I've never heard an ill word about him.
He lets me know he cares by his actions not just his words.
He, somehow, alway knows what I am thinking.
He inspires me.
He makes me believe in fairytales.